Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Letter

To My Friend who (I think) Drinks Too Much,

I get it now, I think. You know it's not good for you. You know it's bad for your physical and mental health. You know that in some ways it isolates you. But things are tough. It feels good. And sometimes you feel like you deserve a little treat. And then sometimes you just want a little treat. And then, maybe, it's not so much a treat as just something that feels good that you like to do. And, really, why not do something that feels good?

This just came to me out of the blue the other day. I think I understand. Because I Eat.

4 comments:

Redhead Editor said...

Yah, but you can't live without eating. You can live without alcohol (or cigarettes or cocaine). Drinking is also damn expensive. Think of all the food you could buy.

Sarahlynn said...

True, but I could probably live without the Bagel Bites in my freezer and the 3 types of salsa for different types of tortillas in my cupboard. I'm not really talking about eating for sustenance or occasional social drinking. I'm talking more about excess . . .

Redhead Editor said...

But I don't think you should HAVE to live without Bagel Bites and 3 different types of salsa! One does not live by bread alone. Oh, that sounds good right about now.

Justin said...

You have captured one of the most difficult things about alcoholism. While it's a choice as to whether you want to be sober, being an alcoholic isn't really a choice. The effect that an alcoholic feels when drinking isn't the same as what a non-alcohlic feels when they drink. It can be difficult to recoginize that you have a problem. It's subtle and I've never met anyone who admitted it easily.